reunited and it feels so good.

hello bloggers :]

i haven't blogged in almost a month and alot has occured. i need to update and i will once spring break happens which is next week. but let's just do a short overview:

- march birthdays: my momma, my baby sister, my buddy aubrey, and myself
- getting my stuff together
- going to vegas for 5 days on thursday for my 21st birthday celebration
- paid off 2 credit cards
- getting into make up

okay i have tons of pictures but i will post later. just wanted to say hello hope everyone is well!

struggling to stay afloat in this ocean storm called life...

hey beautiful readers! sorry for the lack of updates lately... just been spending alot of time with the boyfriend trying to get away from the drama at home... ugh so i'm finally home from a 5 day "short vacay" away and things still haven't blown over.. my dad always instigates a problem for my mother and i.. things we're going well today but were abruptly changed when i mentioned i received a ticket a couple weeks ago at school due to parking in the 2hr zone.. if you knew where i went to school you would know the DPT are horrible sharks looking for people to give tickets to and i was a victim..:[ i missed them by 3 minutes and got a $50.00 ticket... so i was going to pay it, but since i have hidden my own credit cards so i wouldn't spend, I asked my father today if he could write a check for me if i would give him the $50.00 in return.. it was fine until he told my mom and distorted the whole situation and i got the verbal lashing, what my mother doesn't see if the struggle i deal with everyday trying to get my sisters to school on time and rushing myself to school to find parking intime for class.. i've tried public transportation but it's really hard when you have to work and get to work in 10 minutes via public transportation. i mean no harm to stress my parents, i've tried to please them in every way possible! but there is no way to that euphoria with them, i've bit my tongue, clinched my tears, held back the tears, and tried to do what they want. but the generational and cultural gap is too strong amongst us. they see myself as a unit... i am part of a larger whole.. but i want to break free and have my own time. where do i find this, i'm so lost. ugh i really don't want to sound like a downer and continue complaining, but i feel like i have no one to turn to.. i'm literally drowning in this sorrow and ruthless wave of anxiety. the only thing keeping me up is the few close friends i have and my wonderful "superman" of a boyfriend.. sometimes I wish I could just leave...

have no clue what to do shirley....

well here are several pictures from the last couple days:

my heart


the attempt to make red velvet cupcakes


the boyfriend's creation pizza... don't ask.. it was yummy actually.