viva la vida <3!

so far my week has been pretty okay :) with the exception that my "egg donor" and i are not on speaking terms >:( .so obviously i had a very grueling weekend and i finally crashed on tuesday... that very morning i could barely wake up let alone speak my sister came to wake me up because i wasn't ready and i told her i was able to drive them or go to school.. she went to tell my mother @ 7:45 and they have school @ 8:30 and egg donor came storming in and pulled off my blankets and said, " wtf why wouldn't you have told me sooner!! what are you stupid or something".. in my head i was thinking wtf... you have 15 minutes to get ready and you don't start til 9:00 you have plenty of time... so she was just talking shit for the whole 15 minutes screaming and yelling at the top of her lungs... i got so annoyed i said eff it.. i'm leaving so i just rolled out of bed in my pjs and took my sisters to school.. as i started to drive i was already upset and ended up yelling at my sisters because i always seem to get into some kind of pot hole which involves them.. i burst into tears and continued driving.. i dropped the two off without saying a word and drove to the bf's house, thankfully i have him to keep me sane. he talked me down from my anger and eventually i fell asleep in his arms... i missed school but i needed the day off. we woke up around noon and headed to ikea so that i may purchase some things for the rest of my room and we spent the afternoon in Emeryville. It was awesome, I felt so much better.. after our long afternoon i drove the bf home and headed home myself.. once i entered the door of my house i knew the "ish was going to hit the fan" in case you didn't know asian mothers are the worst people to piss off because they always like to have the last word and bitch until their satisfied. so right when i walk in she just starts to go at it.. i just go to my room and after 10 minutes of nonstop bickering i got fed up and said " just leave me alone.. obviously you don't care if i was sick..." she replies, " i don't care i don't care! what do you know... you should've told me you didn't feel well earlier!" then i thought in my head.. " wtf do you expect of me i stayed up half the night trying to control my cough and unstoppable runny nose how was i to wake up any earlier!" i said nothing and my dad came in to help place some nails in my wall for my new picture frames and she continued to bitch bitch bitch. i sat there and took in and started tearing up.. i don't know if it was because i was exhausted or really piss, but my dad he understands now because he knows that my sisters hate it when we get screamed at and the only way to make us understand is if you talk to us calmy and he's adapted that philosophy which i totally appreciate him for.. on the other hand my mother is nothing like him she believes a child needs to be discipline through spanking and yelling.. so finally i said, " i may be the oldest, but i can't always fulfill your perfect mold of a chinese daughter.. you expect me to be super woman, but i too have shit to deal with and you just expect me to do whatever you want at any moment... i spend an 40 minutes a day chauffering my sisters and i dont have class for another 1 before that so i get to school and wait for nothing.. sometimes i wish i could just sleep for the extra 30 minutes.. as selfish as it sounds. but i struggle so much to understand the chinese culture where everything is about the loyalty to a family or group as opposed to american cultural perspective where you're supported to be an individual and do your thing.. so yeah then "mom says fine you don't need a car then, you can take the bus from now on!" so she took my car away, whatever i don't mind taking the bus.. so since yesterday i haven't said anything to her. other than that i'm okay because i don't need her negativity bringing me down.
so let's recap what i did today, i had so much fun at school if you can believe that i really do enjoy my mwf classes, best teachers ever :]. so at lunch i met up with my friend aubrey and my boyfriend's friend marcus for lunch, we got caught up on each other's lives and just chilled. i made plans with aubrey to walk our doggies after our classes [ aubrey, marcus, and thee bf have been childhood friends they live in the same neighborhood and were neighborhood kids] so around 2:30 aubrey came and picked chowder and myself up at thee bf's house. we spent 45 minutes at the park watching the doggies run around and play.. it was nice :] ended my day with a nice nap with thee bf and arrived home. i really should be working on my AAS paper for Japanese class. i guess i'll start now, hope everyone else is having a good week! STAY POSITIVE, WE ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL & GOOD PEOPLE!

-Shirley

the sky is raining love! <3

hola bloggers! happy belated valentine's day.

i hope everyone had a wonderful weekend, since it is president's day weekend.

well i spent thursday, friday, & saturday workin 10+ hours at the flower shop, it wasn't too bad though we had alot of help and it was fun seeing all my co-workers :]

the boyfriend really amazes me with his creativity and consideration, i really must admit that i do not give him enough credit, this valentine's day he really showed me how much he really listens and takes in all the things i enjoy, look forward to, and aspire to achieve.. so basically valentine's day usually means no dinner reservations b/c i work the flower shop til late on the actual date and never have a precise time to get off. but this year the bf asked my boss to allow me to get off a bit earlier and he made dinner reservations at Houlihans . it was really nice, I had the stuffed chicken and my bub had the 9oz prime cut steak.. it was laid back and we had the valentine's special which was an awesome price because if we had purchased everything included in our package it would be $200+ so it was awesome especially in this depressing economy. :] afterwards the bf had previously booked a suite for us and he even showered my walkway with rose petals all the way to the bed where he made a beautiful collage of pictures from our past and present ventures and memories.. i really didn't know what to say it was pure ROMANCE!

I felt as if we were in a movie... it was surreal..

oh and he purchased the HELLO KITTY MAC LINE as my Valentine's Day Present, I reserved it without telling anyone but he figured out I went to Macy's and actually purchased it for me :] I really don't know what to say, but this whole thinking more positive thing is working for me and I love that things that I want are

slowly coming to me.. Life is changing for the better! and I super excited that my birthday is coming up. VEGAS HERE I COME!
well, i'm ending the blog with some pictures frm my weekend. ENJOY!

-Shirley

the rose petals flowed from the very doorway of the living area to the bedroom area

his valentine's day card to me <3>

his words are short and simple, but pack a deep punch to the heart.

he's so cute all dressed up <3

so i forgot to take a picture when it arrived at our table, so when we were almost finished i remembered! lol

hella cute! he's my cheesy poo

he was impatient, and wanted to eat. i skipped our soups and salad because everyone knows what that would probably look like.

my stuffed chicken and mashed potatoes. super yummy <3

creme brulee and chocolate lava cake with ice cream!

white chocolate dipped strawberries, the waiter gave us an extra surprise :]

scattered thoughts...

so I haven't updated lately.. just too much going on. My family's been remodeling the house and everything is chaos! Other than that I have just been dealing with my mother's drama. I really feel like I just want to move out, I mean seriously a person can only take so much of another's constant criticism, bitching, and verbal abuse. From the earliest years of my life all I can remember of my childhood with my mother is her constant verbal abuse.. ugh on the surface our family appears to be the happiest.. but really so much shit goes on between my mother and i.. ONE for the fact that I am nothing like a CHINESE DAUGHTER should be IN HER EYES.. GOD I WISH SHE WASN'T SO NARROW MINDED... we're not in fucking early 1950s CHINA.. ugh I seriously need some therapy because of this effin lady.. I seriously try to make it work with her even my sisters see I make effort, but all I receive in return is everything negative I really can't take this anymore.. any advice? SOMEONE...

-shirley

each day gets better...

hola bloggers :] i hope everyone is having a good week so far... so what's new? nothing for me really, but my poppa did get me a new laptop <3>

SUNDAY: SUPERBOWL... boo i fell asleep half way.. well either team is whatever to me since I am not a crazy football fan, but the boyfriend is not too happy since he is a 49er fan.. he said something about we need to catch up to the Steelers & then some.. anyhoo afterwards several of his friends & i went out to dinner for his belated birthday dinner with friends.. we went to this place called " Cleo's Brazillian Steakhouse" it's pretty yummy, you basically go to the hot buffet for sides & a few servers come along with literally swords of meat & you chose what you want. lol had that for a while & finally when dinner came to an end I had FLAN! for the very first time, it is amazing i tell you! lol and according to one of the girlfriend's also my gal pal Liz, fillipino flan is bomb so i'm on the hunt! we also had tiramisu, which was a orgasm in the mouth! lol. the night ended with a nice stroll @ the piers with the bf, and i went home to face reality a.k.a. going home to do hw for school.

MONDAY: had class.. pretty interesting! i love my MWF classes. anyways had lunch after class with thee bf, got dropped off and went to pick up KIM, my long lost friend. we were friends but i never understood why we lost contact...but she sent a message over FB during the holidays and we have reconnected. so we went out to Target, did some shopping at the Serramonte Mall, then we headed off to Party City, and finally had dinner at Kim's choice, Chevy's. it was okay i guess. After dinner we went to Stonestown and walked around, Kim got some jeans @ Gap and we headed home. got home and did some reading and hung out with thee sisters.

TUESDAY: so my afternoon class got cancelled & the bf and i were late to our first class, and the teacher's policy is no TARDINESS.. so we ended up going shopping.. :X i feel guilty since the economy is so horrible, but i just couldn't help it.. i got the bf two shirts & myself a pair of denim skinnys, two beautiful crochet tops & a smoothie from surf city <333>

here are some pictures to recap:

[ this is not us, but this is what we had on Sunday night]

[the computer i got]

[l-r: babe, kim, me this is from kim's 20th birthday, which was 2 years ago...]

[ our doggie chowder]

[ his keys]

[babe & myself]

myself: up close & personal

[us being silly]

chowder & myself :]

[ my family during chinese new year week<3:>

bottom l-r: myself, my baby sister selena, & my younger sister stella]

-shirley

first week of school is officially over.

hello my beautiful readers :]

i hope everyone is enjoying their weekend. i haven't been able to post, but i'm glad i'm back! so let's recap the last few days...

THURSDAY: my boyfriend's birthday!! so we had school and that just sorta killed it especially since it's only our first week of school and so many people are trying to add classes because of all the budget cuts.. urgh so he had afternoon class and a new class thursday night so we basically had a nice lunch and waited til' he got out of night class to have cake and presents. :[ i know he was bummed and everyone is really broke this year... *sigh i was going to fly him out to LAS VEGAS for the porn convention... since he said he always wanted to go and see.. well maybe next year..

FRIDAY: i had a class in the morning @ 9 so he drove me and it was over an in hour, we decided to go for a lunch and shop aroubd then "WE" had a afternoon class @ 1, but he did not want to go we had an arguement about getting school on track.. and so we both ended up not going and you know the story things get blown our of porportion and i ended up not going to dinner with him for his belated birthday dinner.. and blah... so i stayed home and hung out with my sisters and spent time with my dad... it was nice. i guess in an aspect once you get in a relationship you spend less time with your family and i know it makes them sad that we don't do things the way we use you. i hope once i get things more settled with school, work, and moving in it will be better .

SATURDAY: I had work! :[ it was okay though the flower shop was pretty chill and I sorta just hung out with my boss and co-worker. Worked on some Valentine's Day Advertisement and fixed our store's two websites so pricing for Valentine's Day. *DUN DUN DUN* yeah this year is such a shit year for the economy [ excuse my language] but yeah so my boss decided to drop prices by $ 10.00... i hope people still buy flowers.. but who knows.. all I know is if you want flowers, please don't order online. It's always best to find a local florist and order throught them, if it is going out of the city or area find a florist in the area you are sending it and work through them.. I mean the online one's are bad, but they really don't support your local florist and the pictures ALWAYS lie. meaning if you see a flower arrangement for $29.95 it really only has 8 stems of flower and alot of filler! plus the florist usually has to make up for it so they add more flowers.. i know not everyone cares about that, but if you go through a local florist your flowers come out better because knowing that the customer is local you don't want to shit them.. so yeah that's my advice and shop around and try to find florist with free delivery, usually if you don't mention that they won't give it to you but talk to the phone operator and sometimes their really nice :] okay so after work i attended a dinner with the bf, his auntie helen paid for his father's side of the family to have a little after new years dinner, and so it was an all yuou can eat buffet, our table had some awesome people so i'm happy :] long story but his family doesn't always get along with his own family, their the outcasts.. :[ but its okay because my boyfriend's family is BETTER. lol but yeah so the dinner was fun and later we went to his cousin Connie's house to play beer pong[ first timer!] it's pretty hard. lol so we ended the night @ 2 something and just fell asleep.

SUNDAY: so today's plans... it's beautiful outside so i'm hoping the boyfriend and i go out :] tonight we're having dinner with his friends, because really he does not want to celebrate this SUPERBOWL... he basically hates both teams.. and it's because he is a 49er fan... oh well. alright well i hope you ladies have an awesome rest of the weekend and let this week be a better week...

[ the bf being silly]

-shirley